Mrs.

 I am filled with lots of negative and positive emotions today. After a period of time I have Gained tranquility. this is because of a smile i felt in morning, today. She was alone, she is still alone. She is brave and yet pathetic. She is lovable and yet contemptible. She has everyone and yet no one. She believes and yet suspects. just like Niagara falls she is vivacious yet very silent. She was able to write her whole life today with her own hands. She kept listing and Analyzing things for her future whole night. She saw her nights to be longer yesterday. She is broken yet a mother.  To say good or bad she was thoughtless today. She gave me a smile while leaving. She saw her destination changing in these 10days. The smile that had so many questions but calmness and fearfulness overtook all over.

 Today when i decided to write after a long time a thought that crossed my mind was of a girl who kept on asking me, why don't I write blogs frequently? I know my blogs and my writings are not upto the mark. I always got comments from her may it be good or bad. This blog is a tribute to one of my friends who is no more with us. The sudden disappearance can still not be digested by me. I miss her, all of them who were connected to her miss her a lot. A young lady who was gem and precious to many lost the battle. She as a personality was a TOMBOY. A helping hand to everyone. Having tons of friends, availabilty was never a issue for her.  After losing her, I started connecting to those whom i have not spoken to for a long period of time. Guilt that has been in my heart forever is of not meeting her, since many a times I had chance.

 Time is been uptight with us, isn't it? I look upon searching for a personality which is long gone. You promised to be with me. You gave me wings to reach each corner of this world. You become adviser, you loved me at my weak times, you made me love urself at the extent that it became impossible to seperate from you physically and mentally. With all due love and time spent the respect for u will never vanish. What has happened to this ideal personality? Why is it unseen when I still require it to hold my hands? My long lost boyfriend is lost and the search for him is still on. Maybe krishna and Radha are till famous because their soul didn't accept anyone to enter into their spaces for eternity. Maybe love is so powerful weapon which forced them to get seperated physically but was unsuccessful to break them soulfully. My long lost boyfriend, I still await ur presence in this vacant and swallow world. If u exist, I exist. If hope destroys, world ll be be destroyed. 

In a general conversation with my husband I came across a new ideology of house wife. He labeled me as homemaker. Listening myself called as homemaker., I got furious. With a thick tone I correct him. I asked him not to call me homemaker since I am a working lady. He asked me,    "do you feel inferior when I call you housewife?" I replied immediately saying, YES. He laughed and corrected me by defining the term housewife. He said, the correct word for housewife is HOMEMAKER. The lady in the house manages, feeds, love, takes care, nourishes everyone in the family. She is the one who sticks to basics even though things around her are inappropriate. He emphasised, it's only because of you and my mother that I am able to reach office without having a second thought. How could a homemaker be inferior? Completing all your duties at home you still find time to focus on improving your abilities and working incredibly for yourself. You and like you other women are superheroes. Wit...

Agar tum nah hote, toh kon hota Har waqt pyaar se dekhnewala, Har ghadi mujhe pukarnewala, Ek nazar dekhu to, muskurahat denewala. Chahakar bhi Ruth na pati, Aapki baaton main hi wo jadu hai Pyaar se ek awaaz lagakr , Pani lana khe dete ho, Sari shikayate hi dur kar dete ho. Kya hai aisa tum main  Jo dusron main kabhi parakh hi ni payi. Nazar uthake jab dekhu, Aapse juddi hui hi khudko payi Jab nahi hote sath mere tum Tumhari yaadein itni anmol hai Ki unmain bhi Gunjji aawaz aapki payi.

This is the fact that now a days we are lacking patience. We try to get hold on many things which don't ever relate to us. Most importantly when it comes to working institutions they put lots of pressure only because they know employees are in seperate need of job and will not quit. Taking the fact into consideration they overburden with minimal amount of salary.  Many of the private employees during this pandemic lost their job. Leaving their hands and replacing is a bad choice. It affects the state of mind. Even though the person is financially strong. Putting them on stand by is absolutely a bad option. These were the people who helped the institution on several occasions. This blog is not written for preaching anyone. It is quite understood, an institution is just an organisation which in need will talk sugar coated language. When the work ends it kicks off. An employee gives lots of time,love,devotion and pray for well being and upliftment of any institution. The idea of repla...

            It feels so good when we see a person accomplishing his/her dreams and tenure. Today, speaking about this gives me a overwhelming sight of the past journey. So it was the year 2016-2017 when I saw him taking a lot of pressure. Clouds of fear and blacking of stress could be sensed. He was quite upset with his transfer to another station _ Churchgate. He lost his courage to step forward and go to work. His enthusiasm towards his work was lost and he started questioning many things. I believe, the only thing he was most inclined was his faith towards God. His devotion never shook in any circumstance.      During this journey of 4 years his health suffered. He lost himself in the immese pressure of making himself do what he didn't want to. But it is said, God tests us. I felt those 4years were the test and all the difficulties were the question.      The person of who I am talking is My DAD. Today when he...